I used to look at life as kind of easy-breesy and didn't have many cares. I now have wayyyyyyyy too many cares. I care all too much to be honest. Why?
I don't have all the answers, all I have is hope and solutions. No I am not a professional - I am a Mother. A mother who would do anything for her son. I have never loved, pained, cried, and yearned to be a better person ever before in my life. But being a Mom changes everything. To find some peace in my semi crazy life I have sought help, am speaking to someone about my problems and in turn have found other things that I am hopeful for. I started a list of things I would like to do short term and then a longer list of things I want to do more bucket list-ish. It reminds me of the things that really make life worth the journey. The journey that I sometimes feel I have no control over BUT am once regaining. I am in charge of my life and for the life of my son. I will continue to advocate, fight, cry and learn for the both of us.
Today is Friday - a day I look forward to most of the week. It is the weekend and I get to spend it all with my boy! I think this weekend we'll go sledding and make homemade soup.
Cruz's skin is on the mend and I have the daycare now puting the evening primrose oil on. They had pasta day there today so I am excited to hear if he ate his rice pasta with red sauce, all of which I provided the daycare with. On top of Cruz's food allergies he is also the pickiest eater! It kind of makes me chuckle because all my life I've not liked mushrooms and now I have this wee one who won't even eat a single vegetable. lol.
Have a great weekend! Esme.
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